Seventy-Nine

My head's exploding. No, it's not painful, necessarily... It's just one of those things-- those places where you get to after a certain amount of realization of your existence and how small you are and how little you know because

• everything is so damn relative.
• everything has such a gradient of GREY AREA:
• that in fact, the "fine line" between things is actually two SUPER fine lines at either end of the spectrum and everything else is the difference between the white line on the left and the black line at the right.
• nothing is right and nothing is wrong.
• ALSO. i really hate people who don't take responsibility. you know, we're the ones who are educated and affluent and yet we're using our knowledge to spin the situation in a way where we know how to point the finger instead of whatever proactive, optimistic metaphor I can insert here having to do with hands and the potential of being a responsible society.

you get the idea ^

-there's no excuse.-

and a final note: i'm so intrigued on the fact that i always preach awareness "be aware of your impact" yadayadayada, but too, i seem to think that we ARE aware of what we're doing but completely ignoring the consequences (because it's MUCH easier.) i dunno which is right. it seems like half the time i assume most people are ignorant till the day they die and the other half of the time is me thinking "positively" in the abilities of the human race saying we ARE aware, we are SMART ENOUGH, but then we fail at the execution in using our minds, in changing what we see as wrong. it's a two-step process-- being aware and then acting on the awareness but only having half the equation leads to two very different philosophies.

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i keep hearing really weird music. oh wait. nevermind. it's not just me.